qornificious would be an understatement

Lets play.

2009-09-16T04:20:00.003+08:00

Yea. lets play a game.

As I was descending into Bandar Sri Begawan, Brunei.. I was quite amused by the sight of the majestic mosques surrounding the city.

I told my boss and my colleague..

"Lets play.. spot the mosque!".. 3 seconds later, some fireworks went off. wah... so nice, brunei tau we all coming. heh.

But truth to be told, the view of the mosques was quite breathtaking. They really put a lot of money into building dem mosques. Its my first time in Brunei, and I'm sorry you Brunei folks. I feel like Im back in KL.. rawang or sungai buloh to be precise. Tetiba rasa homesick pulak.

oh btw, its legal to sell mercun in brunei. I found out that the govt made it legal a few years back and I actually saw a stack of em in the supermarket. Damn terre.

Presentation is in 6 hours time.. it's 430am and I've yet to catch up with some sleep. NERVOUS!

Oh ya, one funny thing is that I've never been in a hotel room with 6 guys at the same time. sounds raunchy no? haha. do work lah. not anything fishy.

Please win this please win this please win this pitch. If tak menang, stress la aku next year.

Miss you baby. Only if its just a day. :)

Conflicted

2009-09-13T15:15:00.001+08:00

Nuff said.

So much in pain. God, give me strength.

:)

2009-08-30T20:09:00.002+08:00

for the past 9 months, i've always loved waking up to her in the mornings.

the more i wake up to her, the more i find that she's the most beautiful thing on earth.

im not trying to be cheesy here. but really.

ive always loved our weekends, where we will be having our space but at the same time within reach.

ive always loved our weekends, because when i wake up and say good morning, she will say "Ning!"

ive always loved our weekends because its san francisco baby! (maksud tersirat har har)

oklah. enough procastinating about work. catch ya later.

how rude

2009-08-30T00:31:00.003+08:00

what i hate is people who does NOT have any manners.

for example:

you're sitting down at your favorite cafe, chilling at the same time doing some work. at some point when you're enjoying your space, this dude comes along and sits on the chair in front of you without asking for your permission.

you give him a cold stare and he's just looking back at you, while taking out your laptop plug out from the switch and inserts his phone charger in.

*grumbles*

ah. it doesn't end there.

next, he lits up a cigarette and takes the ashtray which you have nicely place right beside you so that you could comfortably smoke.

at this point of time, of course you would like to scream out loud and tell him to fuck off.

but. the thing is... you don't tell an old man to fuck off.. right?

aduih. at least have a lil bit of decency to just ask? cannot ar?

geee....... tak penah jumpa orang camni.

Talam Dua Muka

2009-08-26T12:28:00.000+08:00

In other words, hypocrites.

you. and you. and you. all a bunch of effing hypocrites.

Cakap tak serupa bikin.

Your action does not reflect what you say.

Ish benci.

Oh ya. another thing. I do hate fucking drama peeps who at the same time lie at the amount of a whole sea. endless.

ok. sudah cakap cakap bengis untuk hari ini.

Ramadan is now here..

2009-08-23T19:54:00.002+08:00

Its been terribly long since I've last blog.

So much things has been happening, and since I was involved with a project which involved going for a 2 weeks roadtrip and managing a number of portals and blog, I completely forgot about my own.

And here I am, back again.. comfortably sitting down at a cafe at home, (home away from home =D).

So many things to write about with regards to my trip. And so many things to update about the small little things that has been happening in my life.

Mini - Update 1: How my trip was amazing that I managed to cover the entire Peninsular Malaysia in 13 days in a 30 year old VW? But we kinda tipu a bit since the last stop was Terengganu (and we did cover Terengganu earlier in our trip) and the car cannot make it.. so we took a flight! But still, the experience was really amazing since now I can proudly say that Ive been everywhere in Peninsular! Now, for the next conquest.. to cover Borneo which I will start end of this year.. YAHOO!

Mini - Update 2: Helping someone that I never met before. Its like that movie "Paying It Forward" y'know? And the funny thing is, the person been secretive about who she is but in the end I found out who she is! Haha. But well, its better this way that things should be just kept.. secret. =D . I hope Ive done my bit to help!

And its funny how the world works. As much as I try to run away from the crowds in KL, ada jugakla terjumpa 2-3 ekor beruk kat atas ni. Ish. Its time to find another place to chill.

Ok. I need to get back to work on this pitch I just got last week. Will start blogging again.. Cheers!

=D

MTV World

2009-08-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

this thing of going for public events is something that i dont look forward too anymore.

but then.. AAR and Kasabian rocks!

The King that I despise

2009-08-09T23:37:00.004+08:00

Usually you'll see them on the streets.

And I dont like them Durian's, one bit!

And now seems that it's a trend to have a fest to feast on them. Yucks. And of all places..

AAArgghh!

quarantine

2009-07-15T18:51:00.000+08:00

best.

apparently someone from the office got contracted with H1N1..and the person sits very close to my department. so.. my boss decided... everyone should be away from the office till next week..

woohoo!

i shouldnt i shouldnt believe

2009-07-07T19:02:00.003+08:00

i have this thing.. about reading my horoscope on "The Star" at around lunch time or around 3pm everyday.

its interesting to know whether your day has been like what the stars has it for you.

like my previous post, i was mentioning that i was being depressed for the last couple of days, and when you get depressed.. sometimes you get a lil emo and paranoid(hah, but in my case most of the time i get paranoid or i over analyze stuff), so yeah.. yesterday i was reading my horoscope and it says:

"Something will come to and end and its time to move on"

gulp.

"It is good times for new beginning"

double gulp.

the whole time i was driving back from the office i was so paranoid, thinking of the unnecessary. and on the way home, i received a text message from her :

"can you bring all my baju from your place over tonight?"

aduih. jatuh hati aku.. berkecai kena lenyek kereta kereta yang tengah laju dekat emergency lane tu.

well, the night came and finally she asked me to pick her up from her work place. and this morning was a nice chillout session before she went off on her worktrip.

i should not be too paranoid to begin with.

i should not be over analyzing stuff.

things turn out fine. but maybe my horoscope is saying that it was the end of the fight?

heh. susah betul nak change my mind ni.

Day 6

2009-07-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

Tiada panggilan. Biarkanlah. Have all the space you want.

Since I've been moping around the house today, been doing a lot of self-reflection.

Who am I?

What have I become?

Well, I've definitely become someone else.

And I just realized, who the hell am I? I can't remember who I was.

Shit.

Men. they are still asses.

2009-07-05T03:06:00.003+08:00

A text message to my x-bf

"Yes. You're still an ass but I still treat you nicely. I just don't understand why do you always have to take advantage when you're with me. Do you just do anybody who has a hole?"

His answer was:

"Making out with you has always been fun"

EISH. DASAR LELAKI GATAL. You know I'm seeing someone and you're married and you want to pull a fast one eh. Next time I see you, Ill kick your balls.

Yes you. you're still an asshole.

Mental Note: Be vary wary of men, especially when they're your ex.

U zap!

2009-07-05T01:33:00.004+08:00

Day 4. Masih rindu. Apakan daya. Takboleh nak buat apa.

I guess i have to just try focus on something else for the next few days, and thanks abby for talking to me. you cheered me up and inspired me to update my blog.

.need.to.be.sober.

Ya, my big sister found out about my episode last night and has given me all the nagging that I needed. I love you. And yes, I will try.

Anyways, mom bought a new washing machine after the last one was busted. So I thought, why not do my laundry tonight since I've been spending most of the time surfing on the net.

Tengah tengah meng-updatekan blog, dengar la bunyi kuat macam hentak rumah. I got a lil bit.. scared I guess and went over to the kitchen. The washing machine was acting crazy.. It was actually fitted nicely in between the counter and the dinding as you can see in the pic.. But it moved!

So I stayed in front of the washing machine for a while to see how I can solve this bising-ness. After 2 minutes, I gave up because it kept on jumping and jumping forward! So I called a guy friend of mine to come and push back the washing machine because tak larat and he was also damn terkejut on what the washing machine could do.

We realized that its actually a blessing in disguise. Its a U-ZAP MACHINE! haha. He sat on it because the machine was jumping to much and to see whether that would solve the problem, but it didnt. the washing machine kept on moving and U-zapping him. hehe.

Thanks Farhan, at least there's someone that I can count on when I really need it.

Blog terbaru yang menarik saya suka : nagging.blogspot.com

2009-07-04T19:57:00.002+08:00

It's a scary feeling.

I'm having a relapse of what happened to me 2 years ago. Where alcohol was leading my life and at the same time ruin me completely.

I was bitter and a different person at that point of time.

They say: 'Have some will power in you'

I say: 'Easier said than done'

I was out drinking with a couple of peeps last night and this dude kept on preaching to me with his analogy - 'Cermin Pecah'

How does this analogy works?

'Secantik cantik orang yang melihat cermin di dinding, apabila cermin itu jatuh berkecai, samalah seperti orang yang memandang cermin itu'

Not to say that orang tu punya muka jadi buruk la.. tapi belakang cerita.. buruk perangai la orang tu jadinye.

Probably I'm trying to live a fairytale, where everything would be perfect.

I miss you b. heaps.

Empty

2009-07-03T13:55:00.003+08:00

this is how i feel now. empty.

Yuna – Permission

i heart yuna. she cool. delivers the right music at the right time.

call me emo or whatever. because i am.

So what’s the plan now?
Are we or won’t we?
So what’s the deal now?
Should we or shouldn’t we?

You’ve taking over my head again,
I’m folding each memory in,
Asking permission to keep it in your

Empty,
When will you love again,
Empty.. is what you are,
Without the nice things you had before

So what was it to you
Were we or weren’t we?
Did it come back for you?
Now there you finally see

It’s already been gone too long
I shoudn’t have pick up the phone
I’m asking permission to pretend
That we’ve moved on

Empty,
Is what you’ll find in here
Empty..is you’ll see,
A lot of things i’ve offered you

What am i to you?
Was i or wasn’t i?
So what you said was true,
Did you or didn’t you?

You’ve taking over my head again,
I’m folding each memory in,
Asking permission to keep it in your hands

Empty,
When will you love again,
Empty.. is what you are,
Without the nice things you had before

Was it love to you?

tak senonoh

2009-07-03T09:30:00.001+08:00

pagi pagi bangun nak beer.

This should not be prolonged man. I miss her heaps.

Its annoying that if someone is pissed at you but they themselves dont know what theyre pissed at you about.

Susah gila nak duduk diam.

Day 2

2009-07-02T12:38:00.000+08:00

Since I didnt drive yesterday to work and I didnt want to go home just yet, decided to walk from my office to Pavilion.

Sesetengah orang akan cakap yang aku ni sewel ataupun gila, because we're just to used to drive there instead of walking. But if want to think back, its faster to walk there than driving. Indeed Jalan Raja Chulan can be a bitch when it comes to after working hours.

As I was feeling quite depressed and also after a long day at work, obviously some beer is needed to make my day complete. Since I've been hanging out a lot in Changkat and thought that the drinks over there was quite cheap.. I found another home away from home!

** Athena, Pavilion in front of Starbucks

It's damn cheap where the beers are going at RM15+ and its a Buy 1 free 1 thing. Happy hours go til 10pm and thats.. HEAVEN.No wonder the place is called Athena as in some heavenly like place in Greece. Yumm.

So kalau nak tahu keadaan mabuk saya sehingga saya mengambil gambar seorang perempuan yang cool.. Shes actually the toilet cleaner and she was posing earlier with a peace sign. Damn funny.

But the outcome was bad la that night. Tips when you go out drinking and not driving:

1. Make sure you have a ride back
2. If you don't make sure that you're sober enough to go back
3. If you're sick.. as in asthmatic, have a freaking inhaler with you

So yea. I was stupid enough because my inhaler was in the car, and I didnt have my car at that time and I went back all the way to PJ drunk. Selamba cab driver nak charge RM40 and I told him, I know whats the standard prize and if times by 2 (because of the night charges) it would be about RM20 still. Geez.

Sampai bila nak macam ni lagi.

Marah

2009-07-01T12:32:00.001+08:00

Message which came in

Her: You know what, I hate liars

Me: Who?

Her: You!

What did I do now pulak.

It has been perfect for the past 4 months after our last huge fight. Why suddenly out of the blue tiba-tiba nak jadi camnie.

Usually if we have our squabbles it would not take more than half hour or a day. But somehow why does this feel that its different!

Because the vibes from the messages I received was quite strong.. As in.. Sangat resentful dan sangat hateful.

h1n1 macam hindustani jer

2009-06-30T12:57:00.005+08:00

news has been going around the office that there are some people within the office area (not my office) is infected with H1N1. so definitely as a precautionary method, we are to use the hand sanitizers and masks in the office.

it got me thinking.

the mask that im using right now is so not fashionable. i dont like it. ada orang cakap macam kontraktor punya mask. its so not cool.

so now, am looking for a more cooler mask to wear. tolong pilihkan?

darth vader mask - effect dia pernafasan yang hebat

optimus prime - tapi i want the megatron ones and theyre selling it in toys'r'us!

it will be damn funny when i stop at traffic lights and look at the other car beside me with my mask on. sure diorg ingat i nie gila. haha.

owh the best thing is that dengar cerita there was some people who went to urbanscapes who got infected with the H1N1.. and since there is another dude in this office yang kena, turns out to be the same dude! kesian dia.

And, stumbled upon Melayu Minimalis about his experience going for the H1N1 checkup. kelakar!

RIP MJ

2009-06-29T16:08:00.001+08:00

Before I joined this agency, I've always wanted to go up to the mid bridge of the Petronas Towers, and here I am standing and gawking macam budak jakun on the sight. Sigh. But yecks, the haze is pretty much not displaying KL as a cool place to be in.

Anyways.. after meeting up with my client, thought of going to go and pick up my new IC. What happened to the last one was.. I was stupid enough to jam the whole printer feeder because I accidently put it there, so my IC nearly got shreddedlah. After picking up my IC and I was walking down to my car, saw quite a crowd in front of some video store.. they were all watching the Michael Jackson showcase.

Ok. first things first. I love MJ. But since he died, all the radio stations, tv, facebook, twitter.. semua pun nak main lagu MJ.. I think its fine if everyone wants to mourn him, but tak payah la sampai nak butcher dia punya identity. Tak munasabah langsung!

And what pisses me off is that some Malay ladies were talking about him as in diorang dengan MJ tu jiran. For example:

Lady 1: You tak tau ke bapak si MJ tu nak jual harta semua
Lady 2: Kesian ye dia, diorang cakap sebelum dia meninggal blalala..

*At this point of time I couldnt remember what was the conversation about because I was just annoyed.

Anyways, point here is that it doesnt have to be that someone has to die first and people baru nak tergila-gilakan dia. Gila hypocrite siut.

Michael Jackson, Rest in Peace.

geez

2009-06-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

Flickering lights. Noisy music.

Didnt think that it'll bother me that much. I guess that I've passed that stage where I'm getting bored of the party scene and would rather stay at home and vege.

It's funny to see people trying to maintain cool and also appear to be budak budak that has it all by konon looking like 'anak anak orang kaya'.

Damn fucking poyo yo.

2009-06-27T02:45:00.000+08:00

this is so not cool. Rashes all over while out with people.

4d

2009-06-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

My new past time. And its cool that my number always come out! But damn pai seh, I never buy.

Like they always say, "Always when you buy, you wont get wan... But if you forecast, sure come out!

Hopefully Ill be lucky one of these days.

2009-06-22T16:35:00.001+08:00

Ini maknanya..saya tengah bosan. Dahla sejuk kat luar tu.

Am gonna be watching Transformers tonight. Huhuhu.

Pesta Malam Indonesia

2009-06-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

Tengok balik blog on the day before ni.. Sumpah bodoh.

I think i should put a mental note to not blog when im drunk. Its really dumb. Hah.

Ahh.. back in genting, my home away from home. Some people would think that im crazy enough to go up here every single weekend (ie.the mother), but then kl is just to freaking hot. call me anal ke, bimbo ke, aku tak kisah. Asalkan i get my cool air... Im happy.. heh.

Well.. what did you guys do for your weekends? Was suppose to go for a holiday to tioman, but it became a tiu-o-man since the plan tak jadi. As much as it was suppose to be a relaxing weekend, we spent our saturday in bukit jalil, where Pesta Malam Indonesia was happening. It was my first time going for this sort of concert and i was definitely amazed at the sight of the crowds. I didnt know that they were so like "die-hard" fans. This rock kapak people were standing on top of some people in the crowd, flashing some death metal flags to everybody while looking like kena rasuk when the bands were performing. Geyrek beb.

And the view from backstage.. Spectacular. Especially when Dewa 19 was performing. I heart them and especially when they sang Dewi.. AAARRRRRRRR!!!

Now back to my book. Nukilan akan bersambung kemudian.

2009-06-20T04:46:00.000+08:00

as much as i hate this, i just dont know where or whom am i suppose to talk this out to.

Its fucking stupid enough that im blogging this in a toilet in my friends toilet.

as much as i told a friend of mine that its poisonous enough that her relationship is poisonous when it involves alcohol, apparently its doing the same to mine.

In her drunk state, she just told me off. This is definitely the first time. Fuck alcohol.

Soalan Tersasar

2009-06-19T19:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, its funny that when you ask one question,the answer or discussion becomes diverted from the topic. For example, a simple question that I posted on Facebook.

Status : Qornzilla is wondering why tudung-clad girls wear skinny jeans and super tight t-shirts.. they should just bear it all right?

Comments:

DD at 12:56am June 21
Haha totally!

BP at 12:58am June 21
ive been wondering abt the same thing tooo.....why eh?

Qornzilla at 1:00am June 21
ntah. I also dont know why. Banyak sangat yang macam tu dekat tempat nie.

ST at 1:06am June 21
i wonder bout dat too sometimes :)

KT at 1:14am June 21
i've seen a lot of those too!!! >.<

MW at 1:35am June 21
let them have abit of flirty fun too..
its fine..

ZHD at 1:49am June 21
It's because their understanding or perception of what is and wearing a tudung differs from yours, mine and others. Same goes with people who wear sunglasses at night or indoors. A tie or bow with a t-shirt. A blazer with shorts. To some it might be a contradiction, norm, fashion, culture, seeking attention etc.

ZHD at 2:14am June 21
Precisely. Just as there was a point in time where it was common to see girls in tudung with shorts playing hockey in the field.

Common is a factor. One that begins with an individual.

In any case, the blazer with shorts is one of many examples. An example in which, if seen on a person 200 years ago, would be utter lunacy. But not today.

ZHD at 2:56am June 21
Perhaps, perhaps, you might, might be, missing the point. Not the whole point, just the one I'm making.

Blazer with shorts was just an example of many other examples out there. An example of something that started as either wrong, ambivalent, contradictory, weird, irony or all, that later became otherwise. From one person doing it, to many others following. And this all covers beyond the scope of fashion.

Regarding that, some fashion roots from culture, music, religion, tradition, idolism, individualism, weather, politics. It's vast, and so are its arguments.... Read more

I don't think it wise to use Fashion Week, of any place in the world, as a gauge. Surely that shouldn't dictate or illustrate or act as a definite indicator of what's good, bad, acceptable, not so acceptable, etc.

Must the people in Fashion Week put out something new or that's already in the streets so that it would then be accepted or at least recognised by all? Sounds a little authoritarian.

note: I just realized, the person who ZHD was debating with.. she deleted her comments. aduih.

But my point here on why I posted this thing was because when it comes to religion, definitely the perception and the morals which governs the well-being of the followers has been controlled by the politics which follows during the era/period. What the government think which will not threaten them will be enforced, for example: the ban on yoga.

Anyways, back to my point where I see these youngsters (well, aku baru sedar aku ni dah tua), the ones yang pakai tudung dan baju2 ketat ni. I may not be a good follower of my religion, but however I believe that there should be a level of respect towards the religion on what has been thought no?

Mungkin, saya telah melalut. Tapi apa yang saya fikirkan adalah, jika anda ingin memakai ketat tapi bertudung, rasa saya lebih baik kalau tidak payah pakai tudung tu. Senang sikit.

Barangan Terbaru Minggu Ini 1

2009-06-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

I think i want to start recording/sharing my new stuff/toys that I have (since its very rare for me to actually go and buy stuff for myself. So here goes!

Since baby mentioned that most of my shoes are.. UGHLY and must need to get rid of at least half of them..This would be my latest edition to my collection. Me like this and bought it at Sg Wang for RM 39.90. I was ordering my Crepe and in the middle of ordering I saw this shoe in one of the shop and went straight to buy. I bought another shoe which is a rock-studded looking heels but dont have em with me right now and got that at RM20. haha. Murah sial.

*Hello world, meet Angie*

Since my colleagues has been complaining about the ugliness of the cigarette boxes and to make sure that they will still have breakfast with me (hehe,loser gile), I had to go and buy a case. I find this one pretty useful and 'social-friendly' since its not ugly and also Oh-So Blingy!Its a cig box + lighter and definitely serves its purpose. Senang sikit orang dah tak curi lighter aku kalau pegi clubbing or lepak.

Sekian.

AAAAAAAAAARGH.

2009-06-15T14:49:00.000+08:00

SELAMBA JE.

aku dah gemuk. yecks.

to question or not to question

2009-06-14T22:11:00.002+08:00

thank god we decided to stay another day here. damn sejuk. damn shivering while i type away this post.

anyways, was having a conversation earlier on the topic of sex. question :

"what would the lady/girl be feeling when they are having a sexual intercourse with a man?"

most of the girls would say, the feeling is damn euphoric.

some would say its just to fucking painful.

some would say, layan je la.

its not that im against of having sex with the opposite sex, and nor do i feel that sex with a woman would be all that awesome too. but seriously, what fun would the woman have when most of the guys are just to effing selfish of just concentrating on satisfying themselves? ada tak lelaki ask the girl that theyre sleeping with "babe, did you came?" or "are you satisfied?"

most of them would just fall asleep after that. haha.

at least women knows how to satisfy their partners. haha.

so enlighten me please. aside from foreplay, what else can men give you? heh.

Ei. sungguh berasap sekali.

2009-06-13T22:23:00.006+08:00

Due to the effects of El Nino, the haze is back. Tak boleh nak nafas siut. On top of that, the view is just a pain to the eye and gives me a headache because its not only humid and hot.. it looks very.. annoyinglah. those were the days that i miss the blue skies.

Was on the way to go see some elephants at the elephant conservotary, and passed by my second home *genting highlands*. it was just damn effing smoky man. at first i thought that it was the fog, but it was actually the haze. so, sedap sedap la my friend was trying to breathe the supposedly cool air, but in the end it turns out to be smoke. hah.

it has not been like this for the past 2 years, i would reckon that by next week everyone would be wearing masks.

Mari meme dalam Bahasa

2009-06-12T20:50:00.001+08:00

this is just hilarious.

Saw this on one of my friends page on FB and its a meme in Malay. kelakar.

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
~ manusia? takkanlah seorang monyet

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
~ DJ Nadz, campuran muzik beliau adalah sangat menarik.

3. Mungkin saya patut:
~ menjerit kepada perempuan tua yang suruh saya berhenti merokok di tempat yang boleh merokok. sangat bodoh.

4. Saya suka :
~ makan dan meluangkan masa dengan sayang saya

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
~ sudah lama saya tak jumpa. rindu pula.

6.Saya tak paham :
~ apa masalah saya merokok di tempat yang boleh merokok. jikalau tempat itu menyediakan tempat membuang rokok, maknanya boleh merokok bukan?

7.Saya kehilangan :
~ akal saya

8.Ramai yang berkata :
~ saya seorang yang kelakar

9.Makna nama saya :
~ tiada makna. saya dah mencari erti nama saya dalam enjin carian google. tiada pun.

10.Cinta itu adalah :
~ sesuatu yang sangat.. bermakna. haihz.

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
~ bermain di kasino. baby saya rindu kamu! ahaha.

12.Saya akan cuba :
~ untuk tidak merasa bangang untuk menjawab soalan soalan ini.

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
~bukan selamanya itu.. perkataan ke?

14.Telefon bimbit saya :
~ sangat saya sayang. tapi kalau boleh saya nak blackberry. hehe.

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
~ benda pertama yang saya lihat selalu membuat saya tersenyum.

16.Saya paling meluat apabila :
~ orang gila kuasa dan berlagak pandai. pergi terbang layang layang la.. (direct translation of go and fly a kite)

17.Pesta/Parti adalah :
~ benda yang saya fikirkan tidak penting lagi. ada banyak benda lagi yang saya boleh buat kalau saya tidak berparti.

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah:
~ kucing. mungkin.

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
~ pada masa sekarang. banyak benda yang telah saya pelajari.

20.Hari ini :
~ adalah hari yang memenatkan tapi menyeronokkan. saya bermain dengan gajah hari ni.

21.Malam ini saya akan :
~ pergi berurut, dan lepas tu tengok filem dan lepas tu minum dan lepas tu tidur.

22.Esok pula saya akan :
~ tidak mahu memikirkan apa2. saya ingin menjadi bodoh untuk minggu ini.

23.Saya betul-betul inginkan :
~ adalah lebih banyak masa dan wang untuk pergi bercuti.

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
~ muka sememeh. tapi mungkin comel. HAHAHAH. bodoh.

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
~ sudah terlalu tua untuk kedua duanya. lagi baik saya pergi bar dan minum.

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
~ kedua duanya. tapi lebih suka jepun.

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap :
~ terang.

28.Makanan segera adalah :
~ makanan yang terpaksa saya makan. selalu tiada masa.

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
~ pegi mampus. how would i put fuck off in malay ya? heh.

30.Siapa yang anda nak Tag?
~ kepada mereka yang memang akan menyumpah saya kerana tag mereka ini. hahaha.

finally, its time.

2009-06-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

its really nerve-wrecking to have the person you're seeing hanging out with is to be introduced properly for the first time.

thank god that went well. i was feeling nervous the whole time imagining that they'll get into a mud fight or something. HAHAHA.

GO sit somewhere elselah!

2009-06-10T10:39:00.000+08:00

there must be a reason for establishments or government to design a dedicated area for smokers in cafe's, malls or wherever right? smokers definitely would have the right to smoke if there is this sign:

and definitely the smokers would be getting the message if a sign like below is displayed:

why am i ranting about this? i was approached by this lady at a starbucks that i was hanging out a few days ago and she rudely tapped me on the shoulder while pointing her finger to me and said:

" i think you should not smoke here, you're being unfair to the others because they will be doing some second hand smoking, its very rude you know?"

i told her:

"if you have a problem with me smoking, why would there be an ashtray in front of me and is there any signs that says i cant smoke here? definitely its my right to smoke and if you're not happy, please see the branch manager or sit somewhere else. its not fair to me too that you're the only one who has a problem with it and others"

well. definitely she became a little pissed and started cursing at me in chinese. and i told her to fuck off.

seriously, its not that im trying to be selfish, but like i said, theres a purpose what the ashtray is for.

yeesh, idiots. damn fucking kiasu.

happy happy joy joy!

2009-06-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

its great that finally you get to strut your stuff.

its great that finally clients are actually hearing you out.

things are looking up!

idiotic profiteers

2009-06-04T21:33:00.003+08:00

i was booking a flight earlier under my colleagues credit card earlier.. and the end result was not "a satisfied customer".. its more to "a fucking pissed off customer".

really WTF.

comparing the Air Asia's online booking and MAS's.. Air Asia definitely rocks by 100%. Its ridiculous that they do not highlight if you are buying for another person under your account, you have to log in as a Guest. NO fucking indications. what was displayed:

after realizing that the e-tix was printed in my colleagues name, we called the customer service to quickly rectify the matter. what she said was to mail to their IT team and a reply will be given in 4-5 working days. is it that hard to freaking reply an email. sigh, big companies.. biasa la perangai macam sial.

its funny that youre promoting hospitality but i think you guys better masuk hospital la.

i guess i may not have a choice but to buy a new ticket. sigh. its okay. as long as ill be partying at the rainforest..im happy.

*growl*

Creepy

2009-06-03T17:50:00.003+08:00

scary. really scary.

what are the odds of having your partners/person you're into/gf/bf having a horoscope which is in sync with yours? and at the same time it seems that things are not going well between you too?

my horoscope says:

libra - something is about to end today, but it seems that you're trying to prolong it until you find a substitute.

her horoscope says:

aquaries - something is going to end today, or you will be going through a radical change.

AAARGH .. TENSION. im so gonna go and drown my sorrows with multiple pints of beer.

Reunion of the beloved. heh.

2009-06-01T17:54:00.002+08:00

seperti yang dijanjikan.. jeng jeng.. kesah re-union di antara...

like i've mentioned in my previous post.. i heart steve aoki like crazy.. and i love him more when he said he remembered me from the last time he came down to kl.. HUHUHUU.

sigh. happiness.

information counter

2009-05-31T21:58:00.005+08:00

wanna know what would be an ideal evening for me?

sitting at your spot, surfing the net, having your favorite starbucks drink and blogging. well, thats genting highlands for me.. my home away from home.

anyways, i found it quite hilarious as i was printing some photo's from the UOX Play at one of the fujifilm booth here in the theme park. since it took some time for me to print my stuff, i managed to see some tourists who were dumb enough to ask the guy who was working in the booth some non-related questions.

tourist no.1: where's the toilet?

well this one i would still think that its quite a reasonable question. i do that sometimes. wait. theres more.

tourist no.2: where do i buy the tickets for the rides in the theme park? do you sell them?

by this time, the guy was pretty annoyed.. but he mentioned to me that he's quite used to it. but the one which hits the cake.

tourist no.3: *at the same time waving some voucher* where is my dinner meal? why are you not letting me redeem my voucher here!!!!

by this time. i was about to roll on the floor and start laughing OUT LOUD.

owh.. went to the junkyard sale earlier in palate pallete.. and had a reunion (che wah) with steve aoki. he was fucking awesome last night and he was even better from the last time he came down. and the sweetest thing was that he still remembers me from his last gig! he's just fucking awesomelah. well. as for now since i dont have my cable with me to transfer my picture.. a picture from the last gig.

apart from meeting with steve.. met with some other people from the scene who ive not been seeing for ages. kind of miss the crazy party days but i guess now im more happy being quite and domesticated. heh. hah. oklah. its time to log off and spend time with b.

good night kuala lumpur.

happy happy!

2009-05-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

who just clinched a new account? heh heh.

happiness on cloud nine yo.

x

drama of the queers

2009-05-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

well, my definition of queer for this particular post would be the rainbow world of lesbians.

theres a lot of people who has given their opinion saying that lesbian relationships tends to get a lil bit dramatic at times. i do agree to that.. blame it on the hormones. heh.

actually, for me.. i would say that the "drama" situations does not only happens in queer relationships, but they do happen in any straight or any relationships as well. my say would be.. its how you control on how things goes which determines the drama.

advise no.1 : dont be so insecure about your partner. trust is important.

advise no.2 : listen to your partner, then be reasonable about what they have to say.

advise no.3 : dont jump every single time over small stuff. theres more issues in the world which may requires your attention.

advise no.4 : do not listen to anyone else who critisize on your relationship or yourself. what matters is whats going on between you and your partner. nothing else matters.

consider this and you shall be free from the relentless drama which would save you a lot of energy.

sekian.

any given sunday =)

2009-05-24T16:28:00.003+08:00

as much as youre seeing/dating/hanging out/in love or whatsoever, theres nothing like cuci mata right?

and theres nothing like bangsar. i heart bangsar. as much as the place has lost its glory from its yesteryears, i still heart bangsar. to me at the mo, bangsar is the place where you could actually wear at your most selamba-est or dress up and nobody would diss you. thats how comfortable i am.

and not to forget, the girls that you see around this part of town, yum yum yummy. hee hee.

one way or another?

2009-05-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

aaa..

benci if cannot blog.. didnt come to realize that ive been so extremely busy. which is good in a way since ive not been having this positive work stress in like.. 1 year?

anyways, there was somebody (heh, if you read this you know who you are lah) who brought up the subject of asking me why does a butch.. is a butch.

well, the thing about butches are the reason why their are more inclined towards being masculine is because they are not comfortable with their body. some other reasons would be that they grew up in an environment which was male dominated (a house full of boys or the group that they hang out with since they were young) which i went through. so when it comes to the sex between a butch and a femme, they may not be comfortable being touched, so naturally theyre a giver.

question : "so how do they satisfy themselves?"

mm.. well. this would be pretty subjective. a number of them would be pretty satisfied if they are able to make their partner.. satisfied.

well, i used to be in that situation but heck. i realised that its more satisfying if it goes both ways no? hee hee.

cheers`

Joy

2009-05-08T16:31:00.000+08:00

do you know the feeling of JOY and SATISFACTION that you get when you know that you've accomplished something at the end of the day?

am feeling it now.

do you know the JOY and SATISFACTION that you get when you know that there are people who think highly of you without you knowing?

am feeling it now.

YAHOO! a very very good way to end my weekday. Am gonna go celebrate with a couple of drinks after this.

Boom Boom Boom

2009-05-05T20:01:00.004+08:00

like my status on facebook says ".. is just going to shut up for the rest of the day"

takde mood gile.

days like these you wish that you're just at home. sleeping or something. or be somewhere that you can just chill with drinks and watch a nice view.

*took this photo a while back, its the bridge near PJCC*

ei. depressed nye. gonna go get some beer and rot in bed.

lucky. really. we're just lucky

2009-05-04T13:22:00.004+08:00

yea...was blogging yesterday that it was fun being totally random. and indeed.. it was a nice day out and also had a nice time spending with b.

well, we were nearly in a bad rut when we came down from genting. after driving for a while.. i couldnt accelerate the car when we were going uphill on some parts of the highway.. and luckily.. when we reached the rest area, the car died and the steering was locked and the break was jammed.. main handbreak la, apa lagi. we were definitely lucky. imagine being stuck in the middle of nowhere on karak highway. damn effin scary weih.. well, end result.. the black oil was out (as in dried) and the radiator host was bursting. crazy.

so yea.. as much as that happened, we got it solved within 2 hours (thanks to the karak highway patrol peeps) and went back home. but yecks, am still feeling nauseas from the burnt black oil.. smelling it till now!

you see... this is the problem with a lot of women, they take it for granted that whenever their car is being serviced, everything will be checked. seriously, to all of you.. whenever you travel, doesnt matter if you've sent it for service, please check :

1. your tires
2. your black oil
3. your water in the radiator
4. your batteries
5. your brakes
6. and i think this point would be important.. please take note of the highway patrols emergency numbers.. they really come in handy.

if youve checked all the mentioned above, i think youre good to go. you wouldnt want to be stuck anywhere which is like.. quiet and scary and dodgy right? oh not to forget, you wouldnt want to be charged with unnecessary charges from the sharky looking towtruck fellas right?

thank you b for being there for me. *smiles* . i think i would have panicked big time if i was alone.

*as much as it is a sunny day, there would be things which could ruin your day but its up to you to make it right* * i love the colors of the sky and clouds.. you dont find them that often*

Sundays

2009-05-03T20:55:00.005+08:00

*nice sunny day*

i like my sundays. especially when i wake up and see a familiar face beside me. *bigSMILE*..

and the best thing is that usually when this happens, random thoughts of what to do for the day will come up. like for example, having a kite session and sunset dinner in Bagan Lalang or going up to Genting. gone were the days where i would just laze in bed. time is short to waste to not do anything.

So yea. Its like today. Am sitting down in Starbucks up in Genting (where im suppose to do some research for work) but cannot concentrate because so tempted to blog. heh.

*starbucks on a wheel!*

so yea. wanna be fun? be random. enjoy life.

cheers. *back to work*

okay. the guide to this rainbow world thing.

2009-05-02T20:27:00.003+08:00

been having too far many questions on this..

about the "categorization" or terms of the lesbian world. seems that a lot of people has been a little been confused. ive got someone who actually asked me... "is bohsia a butch?" *slaps forehead*

by the way, bohsia refers to young, mainly Malay women who would allow themselves to be enticed with sexual encounters with young men, sometimes for free, sometimes for monatery or other form of compensation.

back to the topic, here goes :

1. Andro - having both femme and butch characteristics ( that would be me! )
2. Baby Dyke - a young lesbian or someone who just came out from training ( another term would be "Dyke in Training" hehe.
3. Bi-Curious - to be questioning the sexual orientation. the persons not sure if she is a bi, but have curiousity about it. this is so common these days here in the scene.
4. Bar-sexual - this category was created by a close friend of mine which means that girls who would simply make out with any girls in a bar. normal la if youre under the influence of drinks.
5. Bi-Sexual - like both men and women. that would be me. i still have a thing for guys y'know.
6. Butch - A women whos known to adopt very strong masculine characteristics.
7. Dyke - another term of being a lesbian.
8. Gold Star Lesbian - a women who has never sleep with a man and will never intend to. Wah. super star man.
9. Lipstick Lesbian - woman who loves other women, but also loves her clothes and makeup and shoes. She tends to dress on the femmy side
10.Stone Butch - A lesbian who gets her pleasure from pleasing her partner. She does not like to be touched sexually.

Sources : About.com (Interesting the information which the internet holds.. =) )

May Day!! May Day!!

2009-05-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

Yea, its a holiday today.. Labors Day..

So to all pekerja pekerja seangkatan.. Selamat Hari Buruh. hehehee...

I went for a Chinese Massage last night.. I swear.. I am definitely not going for a traditional chinese massage anymore.. its fucking damn painful.. how painfully crazy it is to not apply oil/lotion when youre being massaged? really. ouch.. usually, when i go for a massage the previous night, i would be having problems to wake up the next day.. but because of that massage, i woke up like after 12pm the next day.. crazy lah, havent been doing that for quite a while now.

Its been teribbly hot these days and i wish that im somewhere else. like. the nearest would be genting highland... or north pole or something.. geez.

Well, putting that aside.. dont know why Ive been thinking a lot about my ex's today. been going through my albums and jesus.. for the past 2 years.. the amount of girls (and occasional guys) that ive been involved with, a tad too much. heh. its not that im trying to show off here or be cocky, but its something that i think is a bit.. tsk tsk. (heh.. i dont know how to describe the behaviour) i remembered someone telling me "yeah babe, you were being rampant".

but to tell you the truth, im glad that ive actually went through the experience of hanging out with different girls over the years (after my 8 years of being in a relationship.. OMG. fucking long right?) Ive gotten to know the different characters - from the too clingy type, the one which always have an opinion, the one that always pull a blonde moment (and being bimbo-istic) all the time, the one who must win, the one who was married, the one who was engaged, the one who treats me as a door mat, the one who has a damn hot body (hehehe.. and the whole office was damn jealous of it), the best friends (i mean yea.. ive actually done bestfriends - one after the other.. damn slut i am) , and the one who was just perfect.

thank god i found you b. youve never failed to make me laugh and also make me smile everyday that i see you. *BIG HUGE ASS SMILE PLASTERED OVER THE FACE* .. at the moment i am still amazed on how loyal ive been even tho i have a reputation of never sticking to one. its been good.

cheers.. gotta go see b now.

i swear i could die

2009-04-28T22:45:00.006+08:00

well, maybe im being a little tad dramatic.

but seriously,today's weather is really really extremely hot. i swear i could die from the heatwave. and on top of that, was going boinkers earlier from doing some research on widgets which took half of my day. but at least i found something cool to play with..

sigh. oh well. putting that aside, i still love my new job.

suddenly remembered the conversation which a bunch of boys (heh,not actually boys la but theyre quite the grownup) on why im gay. so yea, i was telling them that its easier to satisfy women, rather than being satisfied by a man. theyre all about sex. but heck, i know some of you would disagree with me, but seriously.. most men have the "sex" idea in their head whenever theyre alone with a girl. this would not only be the intercourse itself.. but all sort of forms which leads to sex.. making out ke, wild imaginations ke.. anything la.. which at times just put me off.

im glad im sticking to my plans for now. as in girls. girls girls. as much as people have the perception about girls to girls relationship being too "dramatic", i think theyre much easier to manage.

cheers.

leaving.. on a jet plane~

2009-04-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

Leaving on a jet plane..

But hell. Its certain when ill be back in KL. I wished I had a longer holiday.

Anyways, that’s the end of my horiday! In summary, places that I managed to go:

Day 1

Kuta Beach

* seems like I only went to one place onri.. had a migraine that night and slept in at 930! Wasted.*

Day 2

1. Batuan Village

*cute kids eh?*

2. Wood Carving area in Mas
3. Tegalalang Rice Fields - its like Cameron with the greenery, but its damn panas

4. Balinese Cultural Centre – lovely, beautiful.

5. Ubud Market – owh owh and they have BEAUTIFUL PAINTINGS there.. and so cheap too!

*Ubud Market*

*the sleeping buddha.. beautiful innit?*

6. Jimbaran – where we had dinner by the beach.. as in on the sand

Day 3

1. Dreamland Beach

2. Legian – where I went to get some shrooms hehe.
3. Planet Hollywood – for the company’s dinner… and hell yea! I won myself a portable hard drive.. 160 GB woorrrrr

And yea.. here I am back home. And the best part of arriving in KL is to be picked up by someone you’ve been missing and seeing them smiling wide. Im glad to be home because I miss you so much! Hee hee. And also.. its good to be home to show off my tan. It looks like im carrying melons in a plastic. HAHAHA.

Tips when travelling in Bali :

1. Bring tones of sunblock
2. Every where (except the malls lah) in Bali, you can bargain. Really.. you could go
down to at least 70 percent! But to tell you guys the truth, theres a lot of nice
paintings and handicraft to shop.. not so much on clothes.. Go Bangkok..
3. If youre staying in Kuta, don’t bother going to the beach there, go a bit out in
the outskirts. Recommendation – Dreamland and Pulau Geger.
4. Charter a van if youre in a group.. or alone like me.. Its cheaper than taking a
cab, at least the driver will wait for you (which depends on the number of hours
that you prefer)
5. Must.try.SHROOMS. I looooovees it!
6. Massage on the beach is a must!
7. Dinner by Jimbaran, its sexy.

Cheers`!

Being in Dreamland

2009-04-25T10:56:00.004+08:00

heh. corny post title.. but seriously.. i was at this place called Dreamland Beach in New Kuta.

It’s true what they say. Bali’s a curse.

Either you have a big fight with your partner or you break up.

I witnessed them myself. Anyways, don’t want to be so.. depresso on this.

Heh. had a lovely time at the beach today! i really am glad that I decided to actually to charter the whole bloody mpv (since I kena tinggal heh) and go all the way to the lovely Dreamland beach. Honestly, I think that the beaches in Bali are not to my liking because the waves are too too damn strong, but definitely its an ideal place for surfers. No wonder they love it .

I think the best part of the whole trip was getting a full body massage by the beach. I was actually pretty annoyed at first because the lady was trying to sell me stocks of pario and sarongs.. and after much effort of saying no.. she opted by offering me a foot massage at 25,000 Rupiah ( equals to about less than RM10 for an hour).. of course I would say no lah kan. Heheh. But after a while, Dah naik syok.. I asked her for a full body massage instead.. HEAVENLY!

Oh yea…thanks Patrick for taking this wonderful candid picture of mine. I HEART you!

Anyways, its kinda my last full day in Bali.. sigh. As much I didn’t enjoy the beaches.. I do love the culture. Wish I had a lil bit more time.

Sexy gila kan.. dinner by the beach. i miss you b.. x

the sand, the sea and the life

2009-04-23T17:55:00.000+08:00

finally. am in bali.

usually, i would be damn malu to sit on the beach with just my bikini.. usually i would have some board shorts on with my bikini top.. but then.. im out of the country and who cares!? hehehe.

theyre not kidding when they said that the waves here are... crazy.

well, truthfully.. i would prefer malaysian beaches rather than kuta.. the waves are too big and its not so clean.. but well, the waves are amazing tho.. am quite feeling tired since i had to wait at the office at 6am this morning and in the end the bus came nearly to 7am. well, sepoyo poyo pun.. i like the picture below.. hehe. like seniman di tepi jalanan.

one of the things that i like so far about this trip is the... FLIGHT! heheh. dah lama tak travel with MAS.. and ive forgotten that they do have quite yummy meals and also services.. if not.. on air asia have to pay for the food on board and sometimes not so nice also.. but heck, am not complaining because air asia's cheaper and it gets me there!

and one thing about being in a foreign country.. it doesnt matter what you wear on the streets. hehehe. for the first time ever.. was walking down the streets of kuta with just my pario and bikini.. cool eh (sorry for being a little bit jakun, but usually i malu mah).

which brings me to what i actually wanted to say. honestly, i do have a very low self esteem about being myself (which i have been doing this ever since i could remember), but it was good enough that ive came out from that stupid shell of mine and became more.. adventurous. it worked out to be good where everybody was surprised and happy about the change (and there was some who were not being supportive of it and called me a drag) which brought me down.. but after a while, when i think about it.. its really stupid for me to listen to others about what they think of me and whats important is that i should be feeling good about myself.

i did. and it felt good. theres nothing which could pull me down anymore.

message : love yourself, feel good about yourself and the cosmic world will return you the favor.

Ooh La laaa

2009-04-22T17:40:00.005+08:00

by this time tomorrow, ill be by the beach enjoying the breeze and also the sounds of waves hitting by the sea. huhuhu.

will be heading off to Bali for the weekends, and yes it will be a nice long weekend for me. this year has been a fantastic year so far (thanks to b).. been going to so many places and its only april! its amazing that within a month i could actually go to 2 parts of indonesia for holiday. hurrah for the life!

well, will update more when i get back!

and then again

2009-04-21T18:11:00.001+08:00

hello world.. again and again.

after procrastinating for the longest time.. hah.. (i guess that would be for the few months), finally i manage to find some time to hustle this ass down to the chair and start writing again.

but to be honest, the main reason why im starting this new blog (after deleting qrazedmunky.blogspot.com) was because of the conversation i had with josh a few days back on starting up with a blog for me to be honest about myself and all out.

and yes, at the same time will still be publishing stuff on the stuff i usually do (partying, traveling and stuff). to come to think about it, this would be a good channel for me to give out my opinion or to just put up stuff on the table on topics like sexuality per se. he he he.

really.. to come think about it.. there are a lot of girls out there that i know who still hide themselves in the closet, scared of what the public would think of them if they ever mention the truth about their sexuality. i know for a fact that some of them would have to hide it due to their work nature, but a lot of them are just still being confused and not comfortable as they have already have a huge ass stamp on them of being straight. whats the deal with labeling anyhow?

anyways, i know this may make me sound like a pompous jack ass but yes, im happy being the way i am. having love for the women for now seems to be more than enough since ive decided that men sucks. hah hah.

anyways. its time to go home now.

hello again. am happy to be back.